Well, in the midst of all my Christmas studies, I lost sight of why we are celebrating Christmas. I knew it in my head. I was teaching it to others, but I did not own it in my heart.
I have been under a tremendous amount of pressure to get the nursery ready for little Regis. Some of this pressure I placed upon myself, some came from friends and family, but the bulk came from the Regina. She claims to be "nesting."
I cannot go into all the details, but things were not turning out as they should have and I eventually lost my cool and pounded the floor in anger and frustration. I broke my hand.
I am ashamed and embarrassed by my actions. I am a deacon and soon to be a minister of my church. I know that we are all sinners, but I should not have lost it like that.
Matthew 1:1-17 records a genealogy of Jesus Christ. It is filled with great names, but also scoundrels. Abraham repeatedly lied about his marital status to save his own life. Jacob was a bit of a swindler. Terah disguised herself as a prostitute to have sex with her father-in-law and bear his child. Rehab was a whore. Ruth was a Moabite – the decendents of Moab – incestuous offspring of Lot and his oldest daughter. David killed Uriah to lay with Bathsheba. Solomon, for all his wisdom, had many wives and never found real happiness. The list goes on, but the point is that God used all these remarkably fallible human beings in his divinely orchestrated plan to bring about our Savior.
I draw great comfort from this list. I see the miracle of divine intention. I see the purposefulness of history. But most of all, I see how the Lord uses some of the most screwed-up people to communicate his message. The list of most screwed-up people includes me.
As one screw-up to others, let me ask you to remember Jesus who is the Christ during your Christmas celebrations this year. In the midst of your preparations, in the midst of your baking, in wrapping, and shopping, and travelling, and families, and caroling, and watching those old cartoons on t.v. – Let us remember who it is that we celebrate, who it is that we worship, who it is who came to save. Let us remember the miracle that a screw-up like me (and you) can communicate the life-saving message of the Gospel of the Glorious & Risen Jesus Christ. Do not let your light be hidden, but raise it high that all people might come to trust Him and be saved.
Merry Christmas Everyone